Showing posts with label religion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label religion. Show all posts

I should be studying.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

I wore this yesterday:
and I felt cute. (owl shirts, Pac Sun; black sweater, I have no idea - stole it from my momma; high waist shorts, F21; tights, Target, I think?; boots... not sure about those either).
I love walking into work and seeing my boss's reaction to what I'm wearing. She usually says something to the effect of "you're cute... but crazy." I love her.
Today: I am so tired. I don't know why I can't ever fall asleep at night. I watch Parks and Recreation every night - that's probably what's keeping me up; as soon as I put in Donnie Darko - I'm completely out. I can't keep my eyes open during that movie, unless I'm watching it during the day. Silly.
There are so many creepy people at OTC. There was this one time that a guy came up and randomly wanted to have a full on conversation with me. I thought he was just being nice and that was cool and all. He finally left me alone - and then he came back, 5 minutes later. And then Tuesday, it happened again. This time, though, he wanted to talk about if I'd ever been proposed to before. WTF, I'm NOT going to talk about this with you, creepy guy! I don't like this school very much...

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 18: Something you regret.
I don't feel like I should regret much - after all, I'm only 19. But I think that I do regret a few "minor" things that have happened so far.
I regret not going to college at a university. I want the "real" college experience. I look at 2 of my friends that chose to go away for school and I see all the pictures on Facebook, and see all the fun that they are having, and it makes me sad that I didn't choose this for myself. Of course, I realize it's not too late. Actually, I was just reading an email from my advisor at Southeast, and she said that if I want to be at that school by January, I just need to have my paperwork done by the beginning of December. So, I mean, it's definitely not too late for me to change this. But for this semester, at least, that has been a big regret of mine.
Another is that I never really took high school seriously. To me, it was just something I had to do every day. I never saw it as something that would effect college. Which is absolutely silly (and stupid) on my part. I failed a ton of classes my first 2 years of h.s. and so that really messed me up for the first few years of college. My senior year of high school, I was in a math class full of sophomores and juniors. It was absolutely ridiculous.

30 Days of Truth: Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living.
Easy. Jesus Christ.
Every day, I wake up, and I owe it all to Him. I am alive every single day because of Christ. He sacrificed so much that I could live. Someone died just for me, so that I could live. I owe my all to Jesus Christ - He is my rock. He makes this life worth living.

I hope you all have a wonderful Thursday.
Tomorrow is work day for me, and I couldn't be more excited. The little trick-or-treaters are coming and I get to dress up and hand out candy! I'm so stoked. PLUS, tomorrow my Cassie comes back! Only for the weekend though (lame). So she and I are gonna hang out when I get off work Saturday night, watch the movie Candy (one of Heath Ledger's best), and lock ourselves in a room, and paint. Just like old times. That's the fun thing about having a friend that goes away for college - when they come back, you have so much to catch up on, but its almost as if they haven't been gone at all. We've only really talked once since the last time she came back. We skyped for nearly 2 hours, and then we've texted here and there every so often. But I'm so excited to be spending REAL time with her. I've missed her :)

xo
Haley

Letter to My Creator

Sunday, September 26, 2010

God,
I know I've disappointed You, I know I've let You down. So many times I've tried to live completely for You, but I fail every single time. It's almost as if I was designed to fail.
I'm tired of crying myself to sleep because things aren't working according to my plan. But it isn't about me. It isn't about my plans. It is about Your plan. Your timing. And I continuously try to make everything about what I want, when I want it.
You are an amazing, amazing God... You give me the very breath I am breathing right now. You could very well take that away from me any moment.
All I've ever wanted is to live a life pleasing to my Savior. And I still want to do that.
You are my life, Jesus. You are my everything. Without you, my life is meaningless.
Please restore my faith in You, my passion for You. I want to do all that I can to live for You, to teach my future children about a life of serving Christ. To set a good example for my brothers, and even my parents.
Your grace outweighs my mistakes. Forgive me for all the times that I have failed You.
My life is for You, God. Always.