Showing posts with label regrets. Show all posts
Showing posts with label regrets. Show all posts

I should be studying.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

I wore this yesterday:
and I felt cute. (owl shirts, Pac Sun; black sweater, I have no idea - stole it from my momma; high waist shorts, F21; tights, Target, I think?; boots... not sure about those either).
I love walking into work and seeing my boss's reaction to what I'm wearing. She usually says something to the effect of "you're cute... but crazy." I love her.
Today: I am so tired. I don't know why I can't ever fall asleep at night. I watch Parks and Recreation every night - that's probably what's keeping me up; as soon as I put in Donnie Darko - I'm completely out. I can't keep my eyes open during that movie, unless I'm watching it during the day. Silly.
There are so many creepy people at OTC. There was this one time that a guy came up and randomly wanted to have a full on conversation with me. I thought he was just being nice and that was cool and all. He finally left me alone - and then he came back, 5 minutes later. And then Tuesday, it happened again. This time, though, he wanted to talk about if I'd ever been proposed to before. WTF, I'm NOT going to talk about this with you, creepy guy! I don't like this school very much...

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 18: Something you regret.
I don't feel like I should regret much - after all, I'm only 19. But I think that I do regret a few "minor" things that have happened so far.
I regret not going to college at a university. I want the "real" college experience. I look at 2 of my friends that chose to go away for school and I see all the pictures on Facebook, and see all the fun that they are having, and it makes me sad that I didn't choose this for myself. Of course, I realize it's not too late. Actually, I was just reading an email from my advisor at Southeast, and she said that if I want to be at that school by January, I just need to have my paperwork done by the beginning of December. So, I mean, it's definitely not too late for me to change this. But for this semester, at least, that has been a big regret of mine.
Another is that I never really took high school seriously. To me, it was just something I had to do every day. I never saw it as something that would effect college. Which is absolutely silly (and stupid) on my part. I failed a ton of classes my first 2 years of h.s. and so that really messed me up for the first few years of college. My senior year of high school, I was in a math class full of sophomores and juniors. It was absolutely ridiculous.

30 Days of Truth: Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living.
Easy. Jesus Christ.
Every day, I wake up, and I owe it all to Him. I am alive every single day because of Christ. He sacrificed so much that I could live. Someone died just for me, so that I could live. I owe my all to Jesus Christ - He is my rock. He makes this life worth living.

I hope you all have a wonderful Thursday.
Tomorrow is work day for me, and I couldn't be more excited. The little trick-or-treaters are coming and I get to dress up and hand out candy! I'm so stoked. PLUS, tomorrow my Cassie comes back! Only for the weekend though (lame). So she and I are gonna hang out when I get off work Saturday night, watch the movie Candy (one of Heath Ledger's best), and lock ourselves in a room, and paint. Just like old times. That's the fun thing about having a friend that goes away for college - when they come back, you have so much to catch up on, but its almost as if they haven't been gone at all. We've only really talked once since the last time she came back. We skyped for nearly 2 hours, and then we've texted here and there every so often. But I'm so excited to be spending REAL time with her. I've missed her :)

xo
Haley

sunday.

Sunday, October 24, 2010



30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 14: a picture of something you love.
Lets seeeee. I have quite a few favorite pictures! But I'll narrow it down to a few..
this is just about the cutest picture of my life. This was taken back in March at Erin's birthday party. We all had the greatest time, and it was fun just hanging out and decorating cupcakes, and taking photos with Erin & Will. :) I miss these girls though.. I haven't seen them in nearly 8 months! (p.s. Jamie & Janel - I'm coming to St. Louis like, asap, I promiseeee!)
Best friend Breighann & I took this yesterday. She came over for a few hours and we hung out and played on our macs and talked and listened to Beyonce. This is what we do when we're together. :)

30 Days of Truth: Day 3: Something you need to forgive yourself for.
There are a ton of "regrets" that I have in my life. A ton. Too many.
But I think in a general sense, I just need to forgive myself for even having regrets in the first place. We only live once, and we don't have the time to worry about the times we messed up and what we wish we could do over. These are things I worry about quite often - what could I have done to prevent this from happening? What could I have done differently? Its so pointless to worry about this. All of my regrets are in God's Hands, not my own. So I need to learn to get over this and just live life. When I mess up, its all up to God, not me.


DUDE. You NEED to watch Kanye's short film, 'Runaway.' I know that normal people don't have 35 minutes to spend watching an extra long rap video, but for real. It is absolutely beautiful. He is a genius. Even if people don't like him, he's brilliant. The colors, the story, the music, it's all amazing.
(Oh! And this is the edited version for you! Enjoy!) :))
Loveyou!
Have a grrreat Sunday:)

Haley