Goals & Love

Saturday, October 23, 2010

30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 13: Goals
I have so many goals, dreams, and things I want to accomplish. Here's the shortened version of my list:
- get married/have kids before 30 (I know, I can't rush such important things like this.. but really. I don't want kids after 30. If I don't have them before then, I'd rather not have them at all. Kinda sad, lame, and pathetic, I know).
- own a cupcakery. Not just ANY cupcakery, but a Mary Poppins themed cupcakery (this, though, I've realized will be something I want to do when my kiddos are school-age, and I have the time to work on a project like this).
- go to a "real" college, get a degree in business (I want to be able to know what I'm doing when starting my own business, and a business degree, I'd say, is the best way to go about that. Haha).
- go back to OTC, eventually, and finish the Baking Arts program (so, you know, I can own my cupcake heaven).
- move to New York City for a few years (this would be perfect for the type of business I will want after college (which I'll get to in a second) and it would also be perfect for the first few years of no-children married life).
- own a creative/handmade business aimed towards wedding decor. I first noticed that a job like this was even possible when I found The Flashdance where I was then introduced to Ashley Meaders, who does event designing. She's seriously so cool, and a total inspiration, and the reason I want to go into that realm of crafting & creating (I have decided that I am not the kind of person who can choose one career, and be happy with that for the rest of my life, so... yeah. I'll probably have multiple careers. We'll see).
So there's my list of (large) goals. These are all very big goals that I'm very set on accomplishing. :)

30 Days of Truth: Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Ha, it seems I found the right words to express what I don't like about myself much, much easier than finding the words to say what I actually like. I used to like my collarbones. They used to be very prominent, and then I, ahem, got a dose of my genetics all of a sudden, and they aren't as prominent as they used to be. Shucks.
What do I like... hmm...
I like my eyes. I don't like that I have awful vision. But I love the grey tone to my eyes. And if I cry a lot, they turn a really pretty aqua color. Haha, I wish they were like that even when I don't cry though.
I guess I also like how when I get really into something, I become very passionate and dedicated to it. I love that. I commit myself to projects and can be a perfectionist at times. Occasionally it can become a problem, but most of the time it works to my advantage.
That's all I can really think of for now.

Last night I cleaned up my room and watched a movie.
This movie was called Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus.
Wow, wow, wow. Most depressing movie I've seen in a while.
I was at first intrigued by it because it was about the photographer Diane Arbus who took fantastically disturbing portraits of people. Nicole Kidman portrayed her wonderfully. The movie was mostly about how trapped Diane felt as a "normal" housewife, who you knew had photography dreams of her own, but continued to work under her husband as his assistant because that was the thing women did in the 50s. She meets a man with the "werewolf" disease, and falls in love with him, (and I'm trying not to give away anything. Yikes this is hard) and she then starts pursuing her dreams, photographing what society considers freaks. Here is some of her work:

Her photography is certainly... interesting. She did very intriguing work, and I did enjoy watching the film, and how she came to do this certain style of photography. Its just all very interesting. Its just sad to me that she killed herself in the early 70s, so she only pursued photography for a little over a decade. It would've been interesting to see what direction her work would've went if she hadn't commit suicide. But of course, the movie didn't go in that direction, nor did I really want it to.

So..yes. That's what I did last night!
Hahah, I'm a rambler. :)

Have an amazing Saturday.
xo Haley


  1. That movie sounds fascinating. I must see it :D

  2. hi, i just stumbled across your blog and found this post. not to sound like a jerk, but fur should never have been made. what an awful excuse for a bio. diane did not fall in love w/ a werewolf man, nor is he the reason she picked up a camera. she struggled w/ depression her whole life, and if you've know anyone like that in your own life, then you know how incredibly painful it is for them to function normally sometimes. maybe THATS why she started photographing 'freaks', b/c she felt like one herself. or if you've read anything about her, you know that photography people made her feel alive inside. so maybe it was this, she needed something to make her get out of bed in the morning. again, sorry to just come over here and start gettin' all uppity. but this woman, and her art, completely changed my life. and if you are at all interested in her work, then i suggest you look somewhere else.

  3. thank you for clarifying. i tend to get defensive when it comes to diane. and i know a lot of people only know of her from this movie. thanks for writing back and not thinking i was a total bitch. :-/


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