I've changed a lot over the past three years. I remember going into my junior year of high school, finally one of the "older kids" and I was so excited, naive, and above all else, ready to graduate.
A lot happened that year. A lot that I regret, but am also thankful for.
I met Blake that year - which was probably the best thing that happened.
Senior year came and went, and I became hardened to the frilly, fluffy things in life. I completely shut myself off from everything (and everyone) by the end of the school year. I didn't really value friendship like I should've, and my appreciation for my family was hit and miss. I had a plan for my life, and I wasn't going to let anyone get in the way of that... but, reality got in the way. Nothing worked out the way I had thought they would, but I'm grateful for that. God's plan was, and is, so much better than my own.
Simply put, I am blessed. I am so thankful for what I've been through, although it's not much in comparison to some. I've been taught some incredibly valuable lessons, and I've been trying to put them to (major) use as of lately.
Next month, my little brother graduates high school. It is so weird to think that just a year ago, I was in his position: helping mom plan a graduation party, hoping to get lots of grad money, wondering what was coming next in life (but at the same time, not really caring), and hoping that time would pass quickly so I could graduate and get out of this small town. Funny... I'm still here.
Life is funny, and God has an odd sense of humor.
But I'm learning to laugh with Him, when I start to think that my plans are the best.
I wouldn't be where I am now (still living at home, going to community college, and loving every second of it), if it weren't for God & His plan for me. He's the best, really.
I'm not sure what compelled me to write about all of this, but I'm kind of glad I did.
It feels good to just let some of this out, and being able to (somewhat) externalize my feelings.
I hope you have a wonderful night. :)
xo Haley
You seem so happy with all the changes, and that's the most important part I believe. :) It's weird how things can change so fast! I remember 4 years ago changing my "life" path completely 1 week before college started. I even switched schools... Life sure is funny sometimes!
ReplyDeleteHope you have a wonderful night too! :)
xx
That's a lesson I've had to learn before too.
ReplyDeleteNo matter what you think your plan is...God's plan always wins. I like it that way, though. He definitely is always right. =]