i only added this photo to validate this as a legit blog post. ha.
I've mentioned this before, but I am so afraid of childbirth. I love kids, I can't wait to have my own someday, but... umm... childbirth is just gross.I remember watching the birthing video in freshman health class (as a sophomore), and I cried like a baby, and all of the freshman made fun of me. The teacher pulled me out to the hallway, and gave me the 'baby' talk. She asked me why I cried, and I said, that was disturbing." I still stick to that. She said that I would change my mind someday, and I'm just not sure if I will. I honestly cannot stand the thought. I am obviously still open to it, sense I intend on having a baby someday. I just hear so many different stories of childbirth; I hear that once you get an epidural, you don't feel a thing, and then sometimes I hear that even though you may get an epidural, its still the most painful experience. I don't know. I'm just scared.
I'm not discrediting childbirth as a beautiful experience, because I am sure it is. I will be the first to admit that I read birth stories obsessively like they're drugs, and I always cry. No matter what. I'm just scared of what my own experience will be like.
In other news, I just watched The Bachelor. I hate to admit that I love this show as much as I do, but seriously now. It is so great. And it is THE only reality tv show that I am willing to watch. So that means its awesome. I want Emily to win. She's hot. Chantel is more emotional than I am. And Ashley... why is she even on the show? I didn't know dentists were allowed to be on this show. Haha :)
Going to see The Smith Westerns tonight with the boyfriend! I'm pretty excited. :)
xoxo Haley
you and me both sister.
ReplyDeletelet's pray our babies will just fall out.
haha. that would make things so much easier!
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ReplyDeleteso this is the first time i visited your blog...but probably not the last. i have the same exact fears of childbirth and i'm even more terrified of an epidural. i seriously don't think i could handle not feeling my legs and a huge needle right in the spine. so with that being said i'll probably have the worst childbirth experience ever due to already being terrified and no epidural. and that makes me even more terrified! i'm glad to hear i'm not alone :)
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This is the first time that I have never been able to relate to a single thing in your post...
ReplyDeleteI don't worry about childbirth because I am the better gender: male :]
I have never watched The Bachelor.
I have no clue what a smith western is.
But I looooove you!
maybe talk to some women who have birthed with midwives or doulas, and ask what there experience was like? I was TERRIFIED of birth, like had the same reacuring nightmare since I was 10 terrified of birth. That was until I actually saw a baby being born. I watch my best friend birth her son, with the help of a midwive, and it was a radical shift for me. Now here I am, three years later pregnant with my own child. I am doing a hospital birth but with a team of midwives. And you know what? I am not scared, not one tiny little bit. Truth be told I am looking forward to it.
ReplyDeletePS: A good documentary, that isnt bloody and scary, is Ricki Lakes "The Buisness of Being Born"