But I have had a recent change of heart.
While I was preparing a new lesson on After Your Heart (this one is about Being God's Mrs. Right... it'll be up tomorrow!), I realized I was going about this 'break' all wrong. While I've been fretting over our separation and lack of communication, I should be working on my alone time with God.
With him being gone, I've realized just how attached I am to Blake. And while he'll be happy to know I missed him lots, I'm finding it kind of... startling, and not to mention a bit frightening.
I should feel this way about God. I should feel this attached to God. I should be longing to hear His voice, longing to feel His presence in my life.
So I had a change of heart. While I still miss Blake (I really, really do), I feel so much more at peace with him being gone. I felt alone at first, like I'd be incredibly bored with absolutely nothing to do, but now after spending some time digging into God's word, and spending some suuuper necessary time with Breigh, I feel so much better. And I no longer look at it as not being able to talk to him until Friday, but as I've made it this far, I can make it a few more days.
In other news!
I had a phone interview today for a nanny job... in New York. Approx 30 minutes away from Manhattan, right on the Connecticut border. It's a perfect fit for me (and my schedule), so I'm praying that it works out. The only thing is - they need me to be moving in with them the last week of August/beginning of September. Which is like, 3 to 4 weeks away. I should be receiving a call by the end of the week regarding if I've gotten the job or not. I'm praying that I do. But at the same time, this is such short notice, it sort of freaks me out! I hate putting this sudden change of plans on my roommate, Anna, & I also hate not being able to include Blake in all of this. (darn cruise ship stealing my boyfriend!)
So I just ask that you pray for this decision, on both ends - the parents doing the hiring, and for me. I'm praying that NY is the right place for me, and that this family is a good match. So if you have a moment just say a little prayer/send me some positive thoughts! I'd greatly appreciate it!
&& pray for Miss Breigh, she's getting braces put on (again) Thursday! And she's supposedly dying her pretty blonde hair darker! So many changes in our lives right now! ;)
xo Haley ♥